Mevrouw Mikmak

nr.253 – I am so sorry, I did it, originally uploaded by mevrouwmikmak.

Yesterday i finally managed to make the most stupid, dull and did I mention stupid picture.
I got myself lovely orange bunny ears, but if i am fair, my heart is not into this project right now.
I think yesterday i have hit rock bottom, with this project.
I have the feeling my shots are not good enough last days, or even weeks.
I have to find my swing again, but my head is kind of occupied,
I have to finish my website, because next week i will be the featured artist in Photo Digi Pro magazine.
I am really proud, but i have had several problems setting up my website.
When things went wrong with Baloe last week,nothing else seemed to be important anymore.
Next week my sister is getting married, i will be the weddingphotographer, I am nervous about that, I only have one sister and I want it to be good, and I wanted to make her something personal, we have to practice a song we will be performing,
I have to prepare a few things for my boyfriends birthday next week. I miss him and I am worried , he went on a roadtrip with the motor and a friend and they are having bad weather, I don’t think that is a good and strong combination, bad weather, mountains and biking.
Today is fathersday so i will visit my parents this afternoon.
i have to cut their hair for the wedding next week.
Right now i go to help my children help prepare their father(my ex-husband) a fathersday breakfast. He will be here in half an hour.

I am sorry you had to watch this ;-(

nr. 251 – Saying Goodbye always hurts, originally uploaded by mevrouwmikmak.

Goodbye On Black

Today i planned a picture like the above.
My boyfriend left for a week, I will miss him a lot.
But he will be back.
I thought the picture would fit my emotion for the day, how wrong could I be.

When I came home, i found my son in tears, my oldest dog Baloe, had a litlle stroke.
She lost all her urine and did not respond at all.
She has had more of those moments lately, but not as worse as this one.
The vet told me that her days are gone and she is in her terminal state.
It means that she can die every day, or maybe tonight.
She is 14 and a half, so in human years she would be 100 years old now.

I know I have to say goodbye, but it hurts.

Als ik nu een nieuwe relatie zou krijgen zou het versie 3.0 zijn.
Dan sla ik alle testversies aan vriendjes vroeger (toen ik nog jong en wulps was) even over voor het gemak.
Hoe ik bij deze redernering kom, is inherent aan de manier waarop wij (2 zelfgebombardeerde levensdeskundige) de Nederlandse gezinnen hebben geanalyseerd op een willekeurige camping in Toscane.
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Desnoods een weekje, werden er uiteindelijk gewoon 2.
En het was zalig.
Een paar weken toscaanse lucht snuiven blijft genieten.