nr. 256 – Don’t shoot the messenger
Don’t shoot On Black
This is yesterday’s picture.
I have had a few tough days behind me.
(stop reading here if you are not into it)
Not only did I have to make the hard decision to let Baloe die.
I have had a huge fight with my ex-husband about it.
During our marriage I wasn’t even allowed to kill a spider, because you are not allowed to take someones life, including bugs and creepy caracters in his believe.
( a little piece of history)
I always wanted to have a dog of my own, but because I had a job that made me travel the world, having a dog was no option.
When I got pregnant, I decided the time was right for a dog as well, because I had to create a home for the family I would have.
I fell in love with Baloe, from the moment I saw her.
She was like a little bear, all black and fluffy.
So Baloe was mine, but since we lived together and later even got married, Baloe was his as well.
After the divorce, Baloe went where our children went.
So once every 2 weeks, she was with him for the weekend.
The last few years, she didn’t so much, Baloe was getting older and he was on the road all the time, so she stayed home a lot.
I found it important to pay the last respect for Baloe, with the 4 of us. Since Baloe was a little bit his as well.
But then all hell broke loose.
I was a egoistic creature for making a dicision like that.
I did not deserve to have a dog at all, when I said things like that.
He shouted I was a crazy and a lunatic for even think about letting a healthy dog put to sleep.
He just wasn’t willing to accept the fact that Baloe is very sick, very old, has cancer in her belly, liquid behind her organs and is slowly choking.
We paid another visit to the vet last week and when the vet told us, that Baloe would choke and suffer very much if we did not make this dicision quick.
Luckily my ex understood and accepted.
We dicided today should be the day.
This afternoon at 16. 15 the vet will come to our house and put Baloe to sleep.
After that we will bury her in his fathers garden, she will have a beautiful spot there.
The children can go any time to visit her.
I am glad, we can all have piece with this, but it still will be hard, painful and sad.
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To make a long story short:
"Don’t shoot the messenger"
